When People Suck . . .

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Oct
11

Gooberment Shutdown

Posted under Fuck You, Fuck You- That is all, Lost Causes, Things that Piss me Off by Angry Lioness

Ahh, here we go again, we’re in the midst of a Gooberment shutdown that began over a week ago because some douche canoe can’t see the forest for the trees. Folks, if you think the “Affordable Care Act” is affordable, you either already have insurance through your employer, or you are on state aid, Period. There is not a single person I’ve found yet that made it through their antiquated 634 BILLION Dollar Website (no shit!), and discovered “Affordable Insurance” sitting at the end of the rigamarole Rainbow. I attempted it after over  a week of trying to get through and receiving server errors and 404 errors, it asked me for every social security number of everyone in the household. Let me think, NO. I just want a “price”.. a bottom line, so to speak. Basically dick, I just want to know how far up my ass you plan on sticking that #Obummercare without any lube. And I got my answer too.. to the tune of $5K in penalties if we didn’t sign up and $22,000 out of pocket for a family of 4 (after deductible). :dough: Which is rather interesting considering there is supposed to be a CAP for their “Penalty Fee” – that’s complete and utter bullshit folks, there is NO Cap, and I hope you realize that they have the right to seize your PROPERTY for not paying for Health Insurance. Seriously, you should read that shit law- The Big O apparently didn’t, I guess 20,0000 pages of bullshit was a bit like rereading “Of Mice and Men” for him.

:yank: What’s more, Our news media is so damn censored they’re neglecting to broadcast ANY of the actual protests that are taking place, shy of the Muslim protests (shit, they can ALWAYS get air-time!) So much so that I’ve taken to watching the News of multiple other countries just to see the bigger picture. At this point, I shall continue to watch the US news only with a glimmer of hope that we’ll have a JFK moment sometime SOON to save us all from the path of no return.

 

:freeze:  For all those farmers who got nailed with the blizzard last week and completely and utterly ignored while you lost over 75,000 cattle, our hearts are with you and your families at this time, may you recover from your devastating losses.

 

Jun
14

Tired of dealing with Cupid STunts!

Posted under Fuck You- That is all, That is all, Things that Piss me Off by Angry Lioness

I’m about to lose my fucking mind, I can completely understand why people go postal and wipe out the assholes that make life total hell :yank:

Let’s start with our degenerative school systems… Back in my day, if the a teacher wanted you to read a lousy novel for class, they provided you with a copy of said drivel. I’m sure you’re familiar with, “Of mice and men”, or “The Scarlet Letter”, etc. You know, the novels that were so damn bland, by the time you finished reading them you were considering gouging your eyeballs out with a fucking pen cap to avoid having to read another one.

Fast forward 20 fucking years to our so-called modernized world of, “Hey, we know you pay copious taxes, but those don’t cover a goddamn thing and you have to buy these boring ass books for your kids for our class or they automatically flunk”.

Seriously? Why the fuck do I pay taxes? I would really love to know where the hell that money goes… I have to pay $50 per kid to register them for school every year, then pay $75 per sport for them to play, then buy the fucking sporting equipment, then pay to WATCH their Fucking games (at $10 per person) so a minimum of $20 a week, then pay for the use of a musical instrument at school (um, last I knew it wasn’t possible to bring an entire drum set back and forth, if it were, my kid would use his own, since his is 1000x’s better than the schools outdated piece of shit).

I’m tired of being nickeled and dimed to death by a bunch of assholes that couldn’t care less about education. Case in point- my kid is dual enrolled in college, it’s the last week of school and he has to take a College History exam. The high school has the internet blocked – so he calls home and asks to leave school early and go to the library to use their internet to take his 2 hour exam. He would be missing 4th block, which incidentally would be a study hall for him that day because he refused to pay $2 to watch a FOOTBALL game at school. Yeah, the last week of school is a joke and they don’t hold classes, they have various activities that the kids have to PAY to attend or sit in the fucking cafeteria.

So he needed my “permission” to go leave school, which I obviously granted. The school attendance lady got all huffy with me on the phone, “Well, he’s missing 4th Block!” – to which I replied, “Which is NOT a class, it’s a damn football game and my son couldn’t care Less about High School Football”. So she got pissed off and said, “well, unless he has a dr’s note There is NO excuse for him to leave 4th block today.” My response was, “Are you Fucking Kidding Me? the Kid is Dual Enrolled in COLLEGE, He’s leaving a forced Football game viewing which he would have to PAY to attend in order to Go To the library and take an ONLINE TEST FOR A FUCKING COLLEGE Course CREDIT.”

I then proceeded to tell her, the kid is a Junior in HS who will have completed and ENTIRE year of college by the time he graduates, he works 30+ hours a week and he’s an Honor Roll student, from now on, he has my permission to come and go as he sees Fit and no longer needs ANY Further “Permission” from anyone to do so. She gets all cocky and says “he has to have written permission everytime” I told her, thanks for the heads up, I’ll write him an excuse sign it and he can photocopy it whenever he needs one. Cupid Stunt.

So this is where our education system has plummeted- a kid dual enrolled in college is a “loser” but it’s perfectly okay for kids to attend football games as long as they pay a few bucks. It’s all about the fucking money. Everything is always all about the fucking money. :weird:

:fu:   Fast Forward a few weeks . . .

I had to transfer some money from 1 account to another and pay a few bills with my bill pay. I don’t know about you, but I don’t print out the confirmations everytime when I transfer money,  I can say I sure as SHIT will be doing that from now on after this experience.

I transferred a couple grand from a savings to a checking- which I wouldn’t have to do at all if our Towel head fucking governor hadn’t been such a cheap bitch and secured our state from hackers by spending a couple bucks, but no, she allowed 3.6 MILLION tax payers to have their bank accounts Hacked and now our accounts are no longer secure so we can’t keep any decent sum of money in that account, I digress.

So, I transferred money from savings to checking, then logged into the bill pay and set 6 regular monthly bills to be paid. Only, the bank didn’t put the money in the correct account, they transferred it from 1 savings to the wrong checking and 4 days later my other half shit a fucking brick when he logged into our account and we were overdrawn by $1,500. I called the bank to find out wtf happened and showed them the money was taken out on the 6th when I transferred it and we discovered that it was put into the wrong checking. Did they fix the error? No, they transferred the money to the correct account, then shut off my fucking bill pay for 4 days saying my account was not approved, then charged me $150 fucking dollars in “returned payment fees”, then I had to call EACH of the poor bastards scheduled to receive the payments and explain to them the banks fucking error.

Seriously! Is mercury retrograde already? It took me 7 hours, 13 transfers to various bank people and 2 trips to my local bank with me nearly crawling across the desk to strangle the son of a bitch before they decided, “yup, you’re right, it was our error”. Holy Jumped up Jesus fucking christ, YA THINK?!

 

Dec
01

2012 Guide to Groceries under $250 a month

Posted under Lost Causes by Angry Lioness

:dough: Wow, for once a well thought out eBook on saving cash. Nice and I got my copy for free by sharing it with you.


Nov
13

The Fabric of Life is Mildewed

Posted under Lost Causes by Angry Lioness

At some point in your life, you come to the realization of whether or not you matter to people in yours. All my life I’ve wanted a big family – the kind you see on tv specials during the holidays- the ones that argue, but always seem to love each other in the end.  Maybe that’s why I hate TV so much, all the lies it spreads about life. The truth is, most families are so dysfunctional that the individuals within them care only about themselves.
Case in point, my own mother has not even ATTEMPTED to visit me in over 7 years. In fact, she even stated to me that when she visited me the last time, the bed was the equivalent of sleeping on the floor and my house was too dirty. Interestingly enough, our house was in the process of being remodeled, we had torn out Lathe and Plaster walls from the late 1800′s and replaced them with Drywall. Pardon the dust, but it’s a bit difficult to prevent it in those particular circumstances. As for the bed, well I’m sorry your highness that the bed we deliberately purchased JUST for your visit wasn’t up to par with the 5 star hotels your accustomed to when you travel, but we were working within an extremely limited budget.

If you’d have preferred, you could have stayed at a goddamn hotel, but apparently only if I footed the bill. But that’s all okay, you already stated you “won’t be bullied into visiting me” again. I wasn’t aware that it was considered “bullying” to want your family to spend time with you. Not a problem, I won’t make that mistake again.

Family is an emotional security blanket, unfortunately mine arrived torn, mildewed and full of moth holes.

Apr
21

Beltane Blues

Posted under Lost Causes by Angry Lioness

First, I’ve got to say that I am rather disappointed in the lack of celebration during Beltane.  I realize that you, dear reader, may not be familiar with Beltane, which is a major holiday for Pagans like myself who celebrate the Wheel of the Year (which consists of eight Sabbats. Four are Solar in nature, and four are Lunar in nature; all mark the passing of the year with natural milestones.) For additional clarification, all the sabbats are either Major or Minor, the major Sabbats being Samhain, Imbolc, Beltane, and Lughnasadh. The minor Sabbats being Yule (Winter Solstice), Ostara (Spring Equinox), Litha (Summer Solstice) and Mabon (Autumn Equinox).
If you’re not pagan/wiccan/druid or any other earth based religion, you might recognize Beltane as May Day. For me, this day symbolizes life’s ability to renew itself. Love is in the air, so to speak, the earth is brimming of fecundity and life. In years passed I have participated in delightful ceremonies in which a Maypole (a rather phallic symbol representing the masculine aspect) was erected and bright ribbons in a range of soft colors (representing the feminine aspect) were hung from it, symbolizing the union of the God and Goddess, whilst we danced in joy and mirth to eccentric music that permeated my soul with peace. To me the Maypole is not only a traditional “fertility” symbol, but is also the time to fertilize ones dreams with action. This fire festival is by far one of my favorite Sabbats, and means a great deal to me for many reasons I won’t bore you with.
I suppose this is why I was so frustrated that I felt as though I must celebrate such an important occasion alone, suppressing my thoughts and desires from those around me, both family and friends. I found myself torn, wanting to bare a part of my soul, to emphatically express what I felt, to at least attempt to convey what it means to me and why, yet I found that I besieged myself with arguments -personal torments if you will- as to why I shouldn’t express my beliefs.

First, what is the point of explaining to others what you believe when it is clear that they not only don’t share your beliefs, but may lose what little respect they have for you? Why put yourself out there only to have someone look down their nose at you in a condescending manner as they inaudibly express a “humph” at your beliefs while not so secretly hoping they can “bring you around” to their own spiritual awakenings, if you will.
Secondly, I have no desire to push my beliefs onto anyone else… I feel that I’ve spent years discovering my own path and one must make that journey on their own. How is spirituality meaningful if you’re merely going through the motions of someone else’s truth?
And Finally, to me, it needs to be what you believe, it must infiltrate your being, it must fulfill something within oneself. If your spirituality doesn’t satiate your entire being, than you are on the wrong path. If you must be reminded by someone else that the holiday even exists, than perhaps that path is not for you at all, perhaps your journey is not yet over.

So I sit here, aching to fiercely celebrate this Sabbat, to share the joy, love, renewal, prolificacy that is Beltane, yet I must quell my own exigent state. For this reason, I am angry today.

Apr
11

Exhaustion, Alzheimers at 31?

Posted under Things that Piss me Off by Angry Lioness

Lately I find myself beyond exhaustion by the time I finally crawl into bed at night, but still lie awake pondering the events of the day, wondering whether I should’ve done things differently.  I continually find myself filled with an altruism that I can’t even find words to properly express, yet, when the actual moment comes to convey it, I lose my frigging mind, draw a blank, go completely numb if you will.

Take today for instance, a good friend of mine felt like shit this afternoon and although it was at the forefront of my mind, when said friend called me back, I neglected to ask whether they felt better or not. WTF? How can I have that single thought running through my head, causing angst, running through all the scenarios as to what is causing the ailment and what I can do to alleviate it, thinking of every herbal remedy I know of and where they may lay their hands upon said remedy~ only to completely forget once I hear their voice?  It was mentioned several minutes later, following another conversation having nothing whatsoever to do with health and here I am, several hours later, with that same ill feeling in the pit of my stomach wondering what the hell is wrong with me! Have I grown that insensitive?  That anesthetic and insensate to others feelings that I can’t even think to ask how they’re feeling? It was right there- hell the only thing on my mind before that phone rang, but the second I answered, Poof the Alzheimers dust landed.

Then, on top of it, said confidant offered me some advice on dealing with an unruly child that was truly making the day miserable, a calm amidst the storm, so to speak, and once again, I find myself wanting to say thank you- but those words are not enough; They’re hollow and cannot portray what I feel.

So, the angry lioness is once again angry, this time, with herself, rather than any external force or situation. I’m angry at my inability to verbally Vocalize the actual words, “THANK YOU”, without looking at the floor! I’m angry that I lack the ability to articulate myself eloquently in the situations that I  have the inclination to. I’m angry at myself for not living up to my simple expectations, but mostly, I’m angry that I neglected to put my friend first.

Apr
10

The IRS can Suck My . .

Posted under Things that Piss me Off by Angry Lioness

Big Calloused toe. I’ve been sitting here pouring over receipts, tax forms, 1099’s, W2’s, dividend reports, you name it, It’s in this stack of crap on my desk, awaiting my half burned out retina’s to scan through and decipher the useful crap from the useless crap. It all still comes down to one thing, it’s all still Bullshit in the end.

So.. when is this country going realize that we’ve become a consumer nation and as a consumer nation it’s about time that we changed our view of how we handle Taxes. Quite frankly my dear, I, for one, am damn sick of spending copious amounts of my time reviewing the latest laws, searching for deductions that don’t amount to shit.

Personally, I think we ought to dissolve the IRS completely, No Income taxes at all. Rather than penalize those that are willing to bust their ass for a living,  I would prefer to see a tax on goods, (for example sake, say 4%). Which essentially means, if you pay $10,000 for a car- you pay a 4% tax on it to the government, if you buy a 100,000 Hummer, you still pay 4% tax on it.

The tax should not apply to certain items, those items being Groceries and Fuel, but Should apply to all other goods (Homes, Property, Vehicles, consumer Crap- the shit you buy at walmart/Target/insert your favorite store here).

Why? Because instead of a few Americans paying in taxes EVERYONE would be forced to pay taxes.  It would remove the attack against the poor complaints and the attack against the rich complaints. If you want to buy crap, pay for it.

All the (millions) of illegals in the US would be paying taxes- they’d have no choice.. they’re here, they’re going to buy “stuff”. I don’t give a rats ass how big of a wall you build between here and Mexico, this country is always going to have an influx of illegals, you might as well generate some revenue off them.

The US would save BILLIONS of dollars by removing the IRS. Think of all the man hours that would no longer have to be paid and the amount of stress that people go through filing taxes- the depression subscriptions that would drop. Incidentally, this would also ensure funding for both Social Security and Medicare, allow people to retain their entire paycheck, and brings accountability to the tax policy- something it has been lacking for quite some time.

People that are Frugal, that aren’t stuck in consumerism hell would be the ones that paid the least. If you’re happy with buying a used car, the tax was already paid, you’re all set. Maybe it would make otherwise greedy people think twice about wasting the resources at their fat little fingertips. Obviously- we live in a society of Gimmee, Gimmee, Gimmee, I want it and I want it right NOW. If you live within your means then you will pay less in taxes, period.

But since our current tax system is completely fucked, I’m off to make yet another pot of coffee & spend god knows how many more hours searching thoroughly for every deduction I qualify for.

IRS, this ones for you:

Apr
09

How Perfectly Zen of Me . . .

Posted under Things that Piss me Off by Angry Lioness

Today was the epitome of a long day, I spent most of the day as a chaperone of a field trip for a large group of middle school students. In all honesty, I was rather shocked, because generally, I’ve found that I dont enjoy other peoples children. Perhaps that sounds crass to other parents, or perhaps you’re sitting in your chair nodding your head in understanding agreement.  Today, however, I found that I rather did enjoy their company. This particular group of students are the top in their class and I found them to be bright, articulate, humorous, and well mannered.

So, as I sit here, AC DC’s Hells Bells blaring in the background (thank You Zach for the reminder of how Great AC/DC is), I’m finding myself once again reflecting on previously held opinions and ruminating where these drastic changes are emanating from.

Have I simply given in to the soft side- a “Suck it up Buttercup” point of view- it is what it is and you’d better just enjoy it while you can…

Or is it that I’ve discovered things that previously stirred anger within me are no longer triggers, therefor I could care less…

Or, is it perhaps, that I truly see these things as gifts, lifes blessings if you will….

I know the latter is the most difficult rumination of all to believe, at least for me.

This entire day was a head trip. How could it not be, I mean, recall your high school days, obvious cliques, the preps, the geeks, the goths… now picture them all together on a single bus. Presto, you have just experienced my day.

From watching a mini-me of a good friend in days past… and finding myself wanting to prevent history from repeating itself… to (well now, It appears my time to blog has come to an end, sorry folks, you’ll have to come back later for the rest of Today’s Revelation!)

Mar
24

Nucking’ Futs’ gone have I

Posted under I'm Over It by Angry Lioness

Today’s Revelation, I’m Nucking Futs.  Please forgive me for I have sinned, it’s been 32 years since my last confession…

Where to start.. I was pacing the floor this morning, half out of my mind with a panicky feeling that something was seriously not right, but at the same time trying to maintain some semblance of a sane or at least somewhat rational mind.    (Incidently, that was relieved by learning a family member had given birth but nearly went into cardiac arrest during the process <both she and babe are now fine>). A rather frightening disclosure that managed to alleviate that panic.

As if that weren’t quite enough I was compelled to delve into my past, take a look at my warped view of something that I had long since buried deep within the pit of my being and be damned if I didn’t finally come to the conclusion that I have a tendency to view various circumstances with my inner senses rather than logically.  Why is it that I find I have a propensity to rationalize things emotionally rather than with lucid, logical explanations?

Why can I look at the very same situation with different people & come to a clear and concise point of view, yet I am completely unable to view myself in that same light?! How did I become so self depricating and not even realize it? And why, pray tell, did it take me this long to see it?

So I spent the better part of late afternoon mulling over a plethora of events in my life,  (flashes of hell, if you will), reconsidering every irrational, disturbed perspective I have ever placed upon myself and I was dumbstruck. Had ANY friend of mine, at ANY time in her life divulged to me the arguments that I uttered to myself I would have set her straight Immediately, without question, as was done with me.  How is it that I was unable, (perhaps Unwilling) to do this for my own piece of mind?

What salient reason could there be?  I know who I am, as a woman, I know what I want, I know where I want to be in life, at least, I did know these things. Now, I’m wondering several things- Why do I stand in the way of my own happiness, because essentially, I AM the only thing in my Own Way! What the Hell is Wrong with Me?!

Revelation #1- Self Deprication – I suppose my (lousy excuse for doing this would be)  if I point out my bad points, as I see them, to everyone else, they wont have the chance and we can all just get on with the business of life.  This whole business of self deprication is utterly ridiculous, “no one can you make you feel inferior without your consent” (E.Roosevelt).

Revelation #2- Friends are like bras- close to your heart and there for support

Mar
18

The Fickle Finger of Fate…

Posted under Mary Fuckin' Poppins' by Angry Lioness

This morning I was sitting at my computer, I had just finished reading 2 rather rotten emails bitching about whatever terrible thing I’d neglected to do on my site- people taking the time to point out just what they thought,- the short version- My website sucked because it didn’t have the recipe or suggestion they were looking for and how dare I waste their precious time by having such a lousy site.

Under normal circumstances, I would have beelined straight for this site, posted a long diatribe about how much people suck and why… but I found, I couldn’t. I realized 2 things- first, their anger probably wasn’t with me to begin with, but rather something more pressing in their life that caused them to be frustrated enough to want to vent on me and secondly, that if I replied to them in the manner in which I initially felt (aka, Bite Me Doughboy), it would have simply perpetuated more hostility. (Just what the world needs, right?) Buzzzzz. wrong.

Recently I reconnected with a friend from days long passed who has opened my eyes to so many things that I have ignored, repressed, forgotten about, and even given up on. I thought, prior to this Sunrise of hope, that I was doing just fine. I had no idea the amount of bitterness, cynicism, and anger that I put out to the world, the negative connotations that I automatically accepted without question. I found myself in shock.

How can someone who has not seen me in over 10 years See ME so clearly?

It made me wonder, have I really changed that much in the last 10 years? Did I forget how to enjoy the little things of beauty that surround me, and if I have – just how did I get to that point? So, I went back and re-read my posts on my various blogs, (So by now you’re probably thinking- you wrote them, why do you need to go Read them??) well.. because most often when I write it is with blind emotion. A passion that I feel in the heat of the moment and I thrust the words out before they are forgotten in the next heat of the moment.

Anyway, I digress. I reread those posts and I could almost hear my friends softspoken gentle voice asking me, now how do you think I’d have handled that? I found myself smiling and blushing.. thinking… a hell of a lot better than I did.

So how can one person change almost 15 years of shitty thinking just by truly listening and calmly pointing out a different perspective when I had reached a point that I no longer gave a shit about anything… and how does this person manage to see beauty and love in nearly everything- able to point out some good in any situation, laugh about nothing and everything at the same time and …. well..

I’m going to stop now, because I’m once again at a loss for words (hey what do you expect- I’m still learning how NOT to be a miserable bitch all the time.

Peace,

Lioness